Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD)
is an anxiety disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that
produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry; by repetitive
behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety; or by a combination
of such obsessions and compulsions
Basically, what he is trying to say is ... that it's a BITCH!
That's right! It is a motherfucking bitch. A continuous pain in the ass.
People usually take OCD as a joke. Another reason to make fun of people and make their life worse. Some people cannot tolerate people with OCD's. I don't how many of you here know about psychological disorders but let me tell you OCD sucks. I have OCD and I hate it. And the fact that people think "therapy" will help is pathetic. I take pills to keep my obsessions under control. I call them happy pills but in reality they only make it worse.
Anyway, right now I am not on my pill, yes that is right... FACE MY WRATH MUTHAFUCKAS!!!!!!!!!!!
No seriously, I'll, in detail, explain to you about OCD. And I am going to be using "I" in general in case people go "OMG that is not true. I have OCD but I don't ever rant in public" shut up bitch!
Relationships
If you want to fuck up your relationship... pretend you have OCD. If you already have OCD, I empathize with you, bro.
I don't have many friends because of my OCD. Everybody is like "Yo, girl's crazy man" For real and I don't blame them. My obsession is so much that once I called my dad twenty times in seven minutes! No shit. I was like dialing and ish and dad was like "I am never again going to have a daughter" I get worried often and I know it may seem as a huge headache but if you look at things from my side, you'd find out that I am suffering more than you do. (Thank you daddy for still loving me :( )
My obsession stems from anxiety, worry and paranoia. If you don't reply to my texts or answer my calls there will be three things in my head
1. Fuck, is the dude dead or what? Omg, what if he got mugged? Shit, what if he is kidnapped... I don't have enough ish for the ransom yo...
2. Is she not replying because she hates me? Omg she hates me! Oh shit, she hates me because I called her a "monkey" ten days ago. Shit, she is going to kill me.
3. I shouldn't have done it. Shouldn't have made friends. Now they don't reply. OMG, they have all come together and have decided not to talk to me.
Yes, people. To you it may seem bad. To me, it feels like Satan on my back, being horny and ish.
Also, I've lost friends and boy friends over this issue. Sometimes I wonder when I love someone if I am obsessed or really in love. Because it bothers me too. Sucks. I can't make friends because of this issue.
The Rituals
Someone once called me Sheldon Cooper. Son, trust me, I am worse.
1. I have a code for my knocking too. It goes 123,123, 1-2-3! If I don't knock like this I spend the rest of the time uncomfortable and sick. Sometimes I start sweating and shivering too.
2. I need to always touch a wall before I leave the house. If I don't touch a wall, I won't leave.
3. I need to always drink a glass of water before I go bathe.
4. If I remove something from somewhere, then I feel the need to put it back, in its exact place, just the way it was. I am not joking people but my desk has outlines of my pens and books, just so I can put them back properly.
5. While clapping, I need to feel the palms of both my hands fit perfectly. They need to be aligned and proper.
6. You just cannot start talking and leave me halfway. I will trouble you for the rest of your living life to tell me it. And the list goes on. It's fucking ridiculous, no? NO ITS NOT! ITS MY LIFE! People of the world, I don't know about you lot but I am sure that if you go to school without your underwear, you will feel damn uncomfortable... well multiply it by infinity and that how us people who suffer from OCD feel.
Boys, It's like being kicked in your crotch x thousand times. Yes, now you feel me.
Checking
This is another problem with OCD. When I ask of you a favor, or anything else, I will make sure to ask it for a thousand times... ten thousand times too... just to make sure.
No, it's not because I don't trust you... It's because I don't trust me. It's because if I don't ask... it becomes hard for me to breathe or live.
"Did I hurt you?"
"No."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"So I didn't hurt you?"
"No."
"Pakka"
"YES!"
"Why are you annoyed with me?" :O
Annoying, no? YES THATS ME! And it is sad, yes but its a compulsion people, a compulsion.
Sexual Activity
Now OCD has an advantage, you are sexually very active ;) But it comes with its catches.
I cannot watch porn. I don't know why. Maybe it's in my head. But I cannot ever watch porn. I cry, have nightmares about it or fall sick for a week or so.
I cannot have sex with you if you can't fall in love with me. No friends with benefits shit. That is sad because .... not many people apparently fall in love with crazies :|
If you do love me and want to have sex... believe me, no one else will show you a good time XD
Possessive
I am sorry about this. I can be very possessive. I am possessive of my father, my toys, my books. In short, the things and people that matter, which are not many... maybe a couple :|
Anyway, I can get bloody possessive. But I can also put it in control. I can go all "Ross Geller" on you but I can pretend to be "Joey Tribianni" My possessive nature is a lot in control now thanks to tablets but the monster does come out once in a while to say hello :|
Annoying
I think this is the best part about my OCD. My parents and friends love this part of me.
If you a stupid person who goes "OMG Christianity rules" Or "I think gay people should burn in hell" or "I think women are sluts" , then I will make it my duty to annoy you. I will make sure you cry and regret you ever posted that status because yes, there is Freedom Of Speech but that doesn't include HATE SPEECH!
I WILL annoy you and I will derive fun out of it. I think this is the only part of my OCD where I am happy about t.
Cleaning
Sometimes I bathe five times in a day. I wash my hands every one hours. And I can't help it. It sucks but I can't.
So people out there who make fun of obsessive people or consider them desperate and whatever.... please don't :( We have a lot more feelings and emotions than you do, that is all :P
Life is difficult for us too. The only time you may consider OCD a joke is when I tell you that our lives are totally kidding us. OCD sucks. XD
But it also easy to come out of it and ironically, you can come out of it easier if you have a social life :|
Basically, what he is trying to say is ... that it's a BITCH!
That's right! It is a motherfucking bitch. A continuous pain in the ass.
People usually take OCD as a joke. Another reason to make fun of people and make their life worse. Some people cannot tolerate people with OCD's. I don't how many of you here know about psychological disorders but let me tell you OCD sucks. I have OCD and I hate it. And the fact that people think "therapy" will help is pathetic. I take pills to keep my obsessions under control. I call them happy pills but in reality they only make it worse.
Anyway, right now I am not on my pill, yes that is right... FACE MY WRATH MUTHAFUCKAS!!!!!!!!!!!
No seriously, I'll, in detail, explain to you about OCD. And I am going to be using "I" in general in case people go "OMG that is not true. I have OCD but I don't ever rant in public" shut up bitch!
Relationships
If you want to fuck up your relationship... pretend you have OCD. If you already have OCD, I empathize with you, bro.
I don't have many friends because of my OCD. Everybody is like "Yo, girl's crazy man" For real and I don't blame them. My obsession is so much that once I called my dad twenty times in seven minutes! No shit. I was like dialing and ish and dad was like "I am never again going to have a daughter" I get worried often and I know it may seem as a huge headache but if you look at things from my side, you'd find out that I am suffering more than you do. (Thank you daddy for still loving me :( )
My obsession stems from anxiety, worry and paranoia. If you don't reply to my texts or answer my calls there will be three things in my head
1. Fuck, is the dude dead or what? Omg, what if he got mugged? Shit, what if he is kidnapped... I don't have enough ish for the ransom yo...
2. Is she not replying because she hates me? Omg she hates me! Oh shit, she hates me because I called her a "monkey" ten days ago. Shit, she is going to kill me.
3. I shouldn't have done it. Shouldn't have made friends. Now they don't reply. OMG, they have all come together and have decided not to talk to me.
Yes, people. To you it may seem bad. To me, it feels like Satan on my back, being horny and ish.
Also, I've lost friends and boy friends over this issue. Sometimes I wonder when I love someone if I am obsessed or really in love. Because it bothers me too. Sucks. I can't make friends because of this issue.
The Rituals
Someone once called me Sheldon Cooper. Son, trust me, I am worse.
1. I have a code for my knocking too. It goes 123,123, 1-2-3! If I don't knock like this I spend the rest of the time uncomfortable and sick. Sometimes I start sweating and shivering too.
2. I need to always touch a wall before I leave the house. If I don't touch a wall, I won't leave.
3. I need to always drink a glass of water before I go bathe.
4. If I remove something from somewhere, then I feel the need to put it back, in its exact place, just the way it was. I am not joking people but my desk has outlines of my pens and books, just so I can put them back properly.
5. While clapping, I need to feel the palms of both my hands fit perfectly. They need to be aligned and proper.
6. You just cannot start talking and leave me halfway. I will trouble you for the rest of your living life to tell me it. And the list goes on. It's fucking ridiculous, no? NO ITS NOT! ITS MY LIFE! People of the world, I don't know about you lot but I am sure that if you go to school without your underwear, you will feel damn uncomfortable... well multiply it by infinity and that how us people who suffer from OCD feel.
Boys, It's like being kicked in your crotch x thousand times. Yes, now you feel me.
Checking
This is another problem with OCD. When I ask of you a favor, or anything else, I will make sure to ask it for a thousand times... ten thousand times too... just to make sure.
No, it's not because I don't trust you... It's because I don't trust me. It's because if I don't ask... it becomes hard for me to breathe or live.
"Did I hurt you?"
"No."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"So I didn't hurt you?"
"No."
"Pakka"
"YES!"
"Why are you annoyed with me?" :O
Annoying, no? YES THATS ME! And it is sad, yes but its a compulsion people, a compulsion.
Sexual Activity
Now OCD has an advantage, you are sexually very active ;) But it comes with its catches.
I cannot watch porn. I don't know why. Maybe it's in my head. But I cannot ever watch porn. I cry, have nightmares about it or fall sick for a week or so.
I cannot have sex with you if you can't fall in love with me. No friends with benefits shit. That is sad because .... not many people apparently fall in love with crazies :|
If you do love me and want to have sex... believe me, no one else will show you a good time XD
Possessive
I am sorry about this. I can be very possessive. I am possessive of my father, my toys, my books. In short, the things and people that matter, which are not many... maybe a couple :|
Anyway, I can get bloody possessive. But I can also put it in control. I can go all "Ross Geller" on you but I can pretend to be "Joey Tribianni" My possessive nature is a lot in control now thanks to tablets but the monster does come out once in a while to say hello :|
Annoying
I think this is the best part about my OCD. My parents and friends love this part of me.
If you a stupid person who goes "OMG Christianity rules" Or "I think gay people should burn in hell" or "I think women are sluts" , then I will make it my duty to annoy you. I will make sure you cry and regret you ever posted that status because yes, there is Freedom Of Speech but that doesn't include HATE SPEECH!
I WILL annoy you and I will derive fun out of it. I think this is the only part of my OCD where I am happy about t.
Cleaning
Sometimes I bathe five times in a day. I wash my hands every one hours. And I can't help it. It sucks but I can't.
So people out there who make fun of obsessive people or consider them desperate and whatever.... please don't :( We have a lot more feelings and emotions than you do, that is all :P
Life is difficult for us too. The only time you may consider OCD a joke is when I tell you that our lives are totally kidding us. OCD sucks. XD
But it also easy to come out of it and ironically, you can come out of it easier if you have a social life :|
1 comment:
I understand this. Totally. Haha. Chill out. OCD might not be that big a disaster. It's simple. You are no different from me and anyone else. It's perfectly fine to be obsessive. We'll learn eventually.
Keep writing :)
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